After years of having on and off symptoms of dissociation, pain, migraines, ringing of the ears, trouble sleeping, and so on, I was discussing something with my mom about a month ago. She informed me she had fibromyalgia and that I should look up the symptoms. I think there's a 95% percent chance I have it and will be speaking with my doctor about it once I see them on the 21st.
I can't believe I never put any of this together. It's been getting worse as of late and I've effectively been disabled since September after getting COVID-19 again (infection number 5). I thought that it might have been long-COVID because of the brain fog, but given that I have had the symptoms on and off previously just to a much lesser extent, it appears that COVID just worsened what I had. To be honest, I thought all those things were just a normal part of getting old. Apparently not.
Things are kinda bad for me right now. Because of all this, I've got barely enough money to make it through to February. I have a few interviews racked up, so there are some positives to look forward to. If all goes well I hope to be working by the end of the month so I am hoping that does not fall through.
The whole experience has been terrifying. I thought for the last few months I was literally dying. It hurts to sit. It hurts to stand. It hurts to focus sometimes. I am glad I have some idea of what is going on now so that I can get properly diagnosed and treat the symptoms.